Not for the squeamish. Update

As many of you know I've been suffering with ulcers from my breast surgery on both sides, things just kept getting worse, 2 ER visits, its been a mess. I finally went in for my scheduled appt. and got the dreaded news of dead/dying tissue. They were going to schedule surgery but decided to do it right then. They numbed me up and cut away the tissue they kept my face turned/covered and mom said it would be awhile before she'd let me look at it. It hurts so bad, the bigger side is the right side but they did both sides. Its going to take a while to heal. It is very painful, obviously, but they upped my pain meds to 100mg of morphine every 8 hours and 12mg delaudid every 3 hours and 2mg xanax as needed. Good meds, but never enough. I'm freaking out pretty bad, one bad infection and it could be it for me. I'm very scared with my bad immune system from the HS. Its can go bad very quickly. SO please pray for me. I'm tired and not sleeping like I should just have so much on my mind, but I'm so exhausted this morning I might just drop out of it. I convinced mom to do some pictures this morning during dressing change to share, I still will not look at this on my body but a pic helps seperate it. She only took a couple. Again please just pray or send me good vibes love while I fight and go through this, its incredibly painful and scary. Lots of love.